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finally, i’ve the time 2 sit in front of this box…
for the past few days,(or perhaps almost a week..) we’ve been practising like shit!!! yet,in the end, everything still come out like shit .everyone was too nervous, which resulted the flyer 2 tumble-down..and the whole routine juz ruined. we r the last among the other 4 houses..we dun mind if ppl jest with us. but all the efforts,money,time…………………
haiz.. i juz hate the fact that we hav 2 brush up something for..let’s say, a month or a year or even more than that, and only perform it for about few minutes( maximum an hour i guess..) worse come 2 worse, u flunk…that’s it.nobody will wanna know how hard u hav worked 4 it.. nobody cares.
or let’s say, we hav won…still nobody will care how much effort u hav put or wat u hav sacrificed. only u yourself know…u yourself can only feel it.
so, only do things that u r confident with and do it big. u wouldn’t wan ur efforts being wasted, would u ??
July 30th, 2005 at 9:48 am
Dear angel,
These are merely personal viewpoint.
In order to obtain the desire outcome, you might need to undergo a lot. What we are doing, is not for others to see. Yes, no one might realise how much effort you have put in for something that you have been striving. However, these are just the expectations of others. Nevertheless, NEVER never let these things impede us from progressing.
For instance, take the SPM exam. When I was facing it last year, I was also wondering about how it’s gonna be? Undeniably there were lots of expectation from others which indirectly resulted in “self created pressure.” However we need to know our purpose when we are striving for something. When we have clear targets, we’ll never be off the path. When I have finally decided and make clear my own path,that I am doing it for my own, as to create another wonderful chapter in my life and also with the hope that I am able to share my struggle with my comrades, I must show actual proof in my struggle. I must win, no matter what. Win with challenging them based on Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism. At the end, I did it. I am way more proud of my achievement this time compared to my PMR years. Why? Though I had straight As during my PMR and I faced it with confidence but the joy and satisfaction were not as INTENSE as the one I felt during my struggle in SPM.
There’s always an opportunity for yourself to go beyond your limits. Go beyond what you thought you never would. Therefore, I would think that, we shouldn’t just do things that we ARE CONFIDENT AT…but rather CONFIDENTLY DO the things u WANT to do. Confidently pursue your dreams and never let other things stop you from doing so. It’s different u know. When u do the things you are confident at, you’ll ONLY do it when you FEEL that you CAN do it. But when you confidently do the things u want to do, that’s the kind of unwavering spirit that never stop you from doing WHATEVER you WANT to do, and WHATEVER your DREAMS are. So it’s important to know what you WANT to do, than what you think you CAN do and do them.
My keyword for you would be…*giggles*
Clear target + Strong Ichinen = Victory (Joy + Satisfaction…)
striving with you,
[angel of peace]